"Passing Storm", acrylic, by Toni Grote |
Friday, April 29, 2011
ENJOYING STORMS
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
MEEK, LIKE A RIVER AND THE SKY
I doubt if many of us would think “meek” could be used to describe a successful teacher of teenagers, and yet, in my 5th decade in the classroom, that quality seems more and more important to me. Contrary to some definitions of the word, a meek person is not necessarily a weak person – not a person who submissively gives in, bows down, apologizes, and lets people pound away on him. A meek teacher, in my mind, is simply a patient teacher, a gentle teacher, a long-suffering teacher (in the sense of not being too bothered by broken-down lessons or badly behaved kids or whole school-days gone crazy). The meek teacher, the kind I hope to be before I finish this adventure, has the strength of genuine gentleness and patience – perhaps the gentleness of great rivers that roll along no matter what happens, perhaps the patience of the limitless sky that says yes to any clouds that come along. It's being meek in a mighty way, which is, I think, exactly what teens need from adults.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
SHOUTS AND CHEERS
Today I actually heard some shouts and cheers in Room 2, a strange occurrence in my usually staid and somewhat old-fashioned English classes. For one of the few times of the year, we were using the projector to play a vocabulary game, and there was special excitement as I sat down at the keyboard to try to top the winning student score. I did reasonably well, but at the end, when my score came up six points short, a great roar erupted from the students. I must admit to being somewhat shocked by this, since I’m accustomed to mostly sitting with students in fairly serious conversation on literary subjects. I won’t say my classes are humorless, since I see a scattering of smiles as we work our way through stories and poems, but raucous hurrahs are seldom heard. Today, though, there was a splash of mayhem for a few minutes as we played the game, and it was a pleasant surprise to this seasoned and sometimes stuffy teacher. I felt like some of the air had escaped from the balloon of my self-importance. For a second or two, I was an impetuous kid cheering with friends.
Monday, April 25, 2011
EMPTY CLASSROOM, EMPTY MIND
Sitting in my empty classroom this morning, I was reminded of the importance of keeping, at least occasionally, an empty mind. There’s something calm and peaceable about a classroom that’s silently waiting for its students, and there’s something equally to my liking in a mind that makes waiting for ideas to arrive a pleasant pastime. Classrooms can be frenzied places just before class as the teacher hurries around in a last-minute rush, and my mind can be similarly messy when I’m searching for suitable teaching techniques. Perhaps my mind needs to take a lesson from my classroom the way it was this morning just before the students arrived – a kind of expressionless and silent space, with me standing in stillness at my usual place. It was as if the room and I were simply waiting to see what ideas would show up during this class – what changes would be made in the lives of students and teacher because of the words spoken and read during class – and it would not be wrong to wonder if my mind could benefit from a similar kind of emotionless waiting. After all, countless billions of bright ideas are lingering around us at all times, just waiting for an open mind to ask them in – and perhaps it would help if the mind was reasonably empty and thus more keyed up for visitors.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
LITTLE SENTENCES IN THE SPRING
My 9th grade students have been working all year to bring better length to some of their sentences, but now, as the slowly- warming days of spring send a feeling of simplicity to some of us, I’m asking the students to take on short sentences as a focus in their essays. They’re beautiful things, those short sentences in the midst of graceful long ones, and they’re easy to write. Subject, verb, a few ornaments – that’s all it takes. It’s like placing the smallest Easter eggs in the grass among mighty trees, or scattering a few silver dollars around a teen’s room, just for love’s sake. It’s so easy. It’s fun, too.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
THE WINDS OF DISTRACTIONS AND INTERRUPTIONS
After I managed to cover very little of my planned lesson in one of the 9th grade sections today, I was somewhat disheartened. I scolded myself for a few minutes after school, thinking my curriculum was hopelessly damaged and I was a perfectly dreadful teacher. Fortunately, however, I soon came around to thinking about the value, and actual force, of flexibility. Finding that the word “flexible” means, according to one dictionary, “capable of being bent repeatedly without injury or damage,” I thought of a slim, supple tree limb. Countless storms blow past it in its long life, yet it stays as strong as ever, and always produces its handsome blossoms in the spring. In the strongest storms, tall pines on hillsides simply bend back and forth and await the return of stillness and sunshine. In fact, don’t our arms and legs actually grow stronger when they are “flexed” – when they are “bent repeatedly” in various kinds of exercise? Not only do they not suffer “injury or damage”, but because of their increased elasticity, they actually prosper when faced (as in a gym) with stress and resistance. When I ride my bike, pedaling faster and climbing steeper hills only makes my flexible legs stronger. The more I thought about this, the clearer it became that my 9th grade class today, the one in which I “failed” to finish my lesson, might have actually been a gift to me. My detailed lesson plan ran into resistance, similar to the strong winds a tree limb faces, but I didn’t allow myself to suffer “injury or damage”. I remained flexible. I simply swayed with the distractions and interruptions, and soon enough we returned to a fairly unruffled working mode and finished a few important tasks. Later, looking back on it, I realized that I was just as strong a teacher as I was that morning, and the students were just as brilliant, and my curriculum was as focused and well-planned as I like it to be. The “winds” of today’s distractions and interruptions had had no ill effects, and, in fact, may have made me a wiser and more tenacious English teacher.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
BUMPY ROADS, SMOOTH ROADS
"Country Road", oil, by Liza Hirst |
Monday, April 18, 2011
WAITING FOR CLASS TO START
Waiting for class to start,
he sang to himself.
No one heard his song,
but sunshine was sitting
on his shoulder, as if
it was interested, and a book
beside him was looking
more silent than ever.
He heard the furnace
somewhere far off
seem to slow down
as if to be less noisy
when someone’s singing,
and who knows
how many trees were turning
toward his classroom
at that breezy moment?
he sang to himself.
No one heard his song,
but sunshine was sitting
on his shoulder, as if
it was interested, and a book
beside him was looking
more silent than ever.
He heard the furnace
somewhere far off
seem to slow down
as if to be less noisy
when someone’s singing,
and who knows
how many trees were turning
toward his classroom
at that breezy moment?
DEATH AND LIFE IN THE CLASSROOM
"The Good Grass", oil, by Justin Clements |
Sunday, April 17, 2011
FLAPPING WINGS, CHANGING SEATS
"Butterfly Pansies", oil, by Nancy Medina |
Saturday, April 16, 2011
WIGGLES AND BOXES
"Spring Comes to the Shoreline" | (Waterford, CT beach), oil, by Roxanne Steed |
Thursday, April 14, 2011
WHILE HE WORKED AT HIS DESK
"Daffodils and Pears", oil, by Sarah Sedwick |
While he worked at his desk,
the daffodils did no work at all.
They stood where the student
had placed them yesterday,
as though they were proud
to have a place in his classroom.
A cloud carried itself with composure
across the sky, some branches bowed
in a puff of air in an unruffled way,
his fingers found the keyboard
like it kept him happy,
and these flowers were fortunate
to be where they were.
the daffodils did no work at all.
They stood where the student
had placed them yesterday,
as though they were proud
to have a place in his classroom.
A cloud carried itself with composure
across the sky, some branches bowed
in a puff of air in an unruffled way,
his fingers found the keyboard
like it kept him happy,
and these flowers were fortunate
to be where they were.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
CONGRATULATIONS TO A GREAT DAY
"A Beautiful Day", oil, by Susan Cox |
He said, “Great job on this day,
dear sun! And good work,
you humorous winds
that gave my shirt a shake
every so often! And way
to go, sticks in the grass,
staying in your perfect positions!
And congratulations, light-winged
little birds that belong everywhere
on a day like this! And
you did it, worries, you wailed
and screamed in the softest way
and then went away all alone!
And attaboy, you bright lights
in some of the words I spoke!
And attagirl, you gifts
given to me moment after moment,
in the millions!”
He threw a few more words
in the air in praise and appreciation,
and then prepared his supper.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
ONLY
It’s interesting to me that the word “only” derives from the same root that gives us “one”, a fact which I often relate to my work as a middle school English teacher. When I remind myself, as I often do, that I only have to teach kids how to improve their reading and writing, not how to live lives of decency and resolve, what I mean is that there’s a oneness, a singleness of purpose, in my work that makes maintaining focus fairly easy. I don’t have a thousand jobs to do, only one – to teach students to read with vigilance and write with self-assurance. When I drive to school each morning, a single overshadowing thought should be on my mind: today, I only have to give the students a suggestion or two to help them be better readers and writers. From "one" we also get the word “lonely”, implying, perhaps, that being “lonely” does not always have to be a discouraging experience, especially if it simply means being alone in my complete focus on the single task at hand. I am alone – “all one” – when I give my utter attention to a few essential teaching tasks. I am lonely, or “l-one-ly”, in the good sense of focusing singly, one by one, on teaching some simple skills and concepts for a few hours each day. After all, I’m only a teacher of middle school English. The stars spin above us constantly, winds come across our towns from unimaginable distances, and in such an awe-inspiring universe, I’m fortunate that I only have to show kids how to read and write better than they did before.
SETTING LAMPS OUT
"Two Turq Lamps", watercolor, by Gretchen Kelly |
On some days the belief that he is a bad teacher
or that his students can be unsuccessful
slides away like clouds fall off to the west.
Then he sees again that his thoughts are lights
that always lead the way,
and that his students’ thoughts are also lights --
little ones as wonderful as his.
He sees that light is all that lives in his classroom,
and that ignorance always gets up and leaves
when he and his students set their lamps out
at the start of every English class.
Monday, April 11, 2011
A PROPER THANKS
One day a parent thanked him,
but he said she should also
thank his parents,
and all his teachers,
and every person
who passed his way
in sixty-nine years,
and the mountains
that made him strong
thirty-seven years ago,
and the Current River
for the courage it taught him
as a teen,
and the sun that strengthens him
day after day,
and the air
that makes miracles in his lungs
and lets him stand
before his students
and teach
what all these have taught him.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
WHAT THE SKY SAYS
"Sky Painting", oil, by Tom Brown |
A wide, wonderful day
was spreading itself out,
a bird was letting itself loose
in the woods,
but the sky
was simply staying where it was.
It does that, the sky --
just good-naturedly lets things underneath
think they’re strong and significant,
while it takes its time
with its sunshine
or clouds carrying presents
for us all. It says,
“My strength is in staying
out of the scene,
especially on large, lovable days
like this one.”
CRUISE CONTROL IN THE CLASSROOM
"Country Road", oil, by Heidi Malott |
Saturday, April 9, 2011
HE HAD A FRIEND
"Road Challenge", oil, by Stephen Goodman |
He had a friend
who was full of happiness,
and because of that,
he also was happy.
He saw that happiness
is like sunlight,
something that can’t be
measured or collected
or kept to one person.
It spreads evenly
across our lives
as we sleep or visit a store
or set out in search of it,
or just as we sit
in our secret sadness,
not noticing the happiness
that always fills the universe
and always waits.
Friday, April 8, 2011
APRIL
"Tennessee Spring Light", watercolor, by Chris Ousley |
Just the word itself,
can cause fields
of good moods
to grow inside me.
April’s a welcome companion
-- its wide-open mornings.
it’s wisps of warm air,
its rain
running down the roads
to meet me.
The passing of March
makes April my manager,
the creator of countrysides
of youthful thoughts,
the thrower of first-class feelings.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
NEW CURRENTS
“How very beautiful these gems are!” said Dorothea, under a new current of feeling […].”
-- George Eliot, Middlemarch
As I read the above sentence last night, I pictured Dorothea Brooke wholly submerged in her feelings, with new currents constantly passing over and around her, and then I pictured my young students in the same situation. To a casual observer (and even to the teacher) my 9th grade English classes can sometimes seem sluggish and even sleep inducing, but the appearance is deceiving, because under the surface the currents of feeling are effervescent and relentless. Inside the often silent and expressionless kids that sit before me each day are feelings that would shout if they had voices. If feelings were rivers, those in my classroom would carry us all away on floods. I’ve seen evidence of this fact too many times to count. We’ll be studying a bewildering line from Wordsworth when suddenly a smile spreads across a face, just as if a new current of thought passed by, and the student starts to speak with wisdom about the line. Or, out of the blue, a student will bring us back to something said many minutes before and offer a fresh thought on it, like a new current in a river suddenly coming along. And the teacher is no different. Even now, as I type this, I feel fresh, unused currents of thoughts and feelings flowing around me, carrying me along to who knows where.
EVERYDAY PERFECTION
"Canoe and Fisherman", oil, by David Larson Evans |
An old truism says that nothing is perfect, but strangely enough, I’ve come to think that, in a way, things are always perfect in my classroom. Of course, by the many artificial standards we use to pass judgment on ourselves and others, there are dozens of degrees of imperfection in everything that occurs in my room, but whenever I manage to stand back in a more non-judgmental position, I see evidence of flawless events unfolding just as they should. From this more accepting point of view, each moment of a class carries out its duties precisely as it’s supposed to. Each small or significant occurrence creates something special, something that sets that moment aside as distinctive, even though the distinction, the full worthiness and merit of the moment, may not be entirely clear to me. I’ve long since realized that my ability to judge the true value of anything is about as nonexistent as hair on my head. I regularly pretend that I know which lesson soared and which one was a washout, which students set records for themselves and which ones slumped along, but the truth is it’s all just stylish guesswork. In point of fact, I can judge the success of my classes no better than I can judge whether winds are what they should be when they pass the classroom windows. What I’ve come to see is that, rather than constantly passing judgment on what happens in English class, I should try to step back and accept the suitability of all of it and try to see how each moment, no matter what it’s made of, makes a new opportunity for learning. This doesn’t mean I need to like everything that happens, or that I shouldn’t rapidly redirect any misbehavior; on the contrary, accepting what’s happening now makes it much easier to make something different happen a moment from now. It’s a little like steering my kayak in quick waters: by not fighting nature’s perfectly-planned course of the river, I find smooth ways to get where I want to go, and by saying yes to the rightness of whatever’s happening in English class, I can usually notice and follow the most effortless ways to teach what needs to be taught.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
IT HAPPENED SUDDENLY
"New England Summer", oil, by Roxanne Steed |
It happened suddenly.
He was speaking to his students,
about lines from Shakespeare
when, without warning,
it seemed his words
were made by mountain winds,
his thoughts thrown together
by fires and floods.
He felt like feelings
were falling into him
from far off heights,
like the land of heaven
was here in his classroom
in this quiet part of Connecticut
where commonplace things
usually occur.
Monday, April 4, 2011
SILENT READING
"Bluebird Happiness", oil, by Thaw Malin III |
We were all sitting silently,
and the stones outside
were sitting beside each other,
and trees were sitting
with warm arms held out,
and somewhere there were limitless stars
settling into their places.
and the stones outside
were sitting beside each other,
and trees were sitting
with warm arms held out,
and somewhere there were limitless stars
settling into their places.
Our pages slowly turned
as we traveled separately,
serious readers
shining side by side
somewhere.
as we traveled separately,
serious readers
shining side by side
somewhere.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
POISED IN ROOM 2
"Antique Lamp", oil, by Heidi Mallot |
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